Wow

Wow!  I had almost forgot about this blog.  Needless to say I have not had time to Blog much in the last few years lol!  I kinda fell upon this and reading my old posts was like a knife in my heart.  Remembering all that pain and sadness and guilt.  I am in such a better place now but damn, reading that was rough. For all of u that are still following please know I appreciate you all helping me thru those rocky times.  I will never understand why Myah was taken from me but I am at peace with her death, at least as much as I can be.  I googled her name tonight and one page said that the name Myah means illusion in Hindu. I know my Myah was real and beautiful and perfect, no illusion here. But I did find the reference kind of odd....definitely made me think a bit.  Maybe there are things that I should be seeing that I am not, kind of the opposite of illusion??