angry...sad...

Hey baby, just having a rough night!! I watched the video's that uncle Justin captured with his cell phone around Christmas time, and I loved seeing you alive and happy....just loved it. I am having a hard time with the reality of all of this. It's like it isn't real still, I don't know how to make it real. I know you are gone but it doesn' t seem final.....I just want to wake up from this nightmare. I am so sad all the time, I miss you so much. I want to know why you were taken from me. I am so pissed off that I am here still and you aren't. I wish I was with you, or you with me, but the latter is probably asking too much. I am still waiting to dream about you....please come to me soon.

Mommy